Monday, December 21, 2009

Rereading a Disturbing Poem

I inch my way through Randall Jarrell
slowly advancing my bare feet in the tall grass.
It itches my ankles
and blocks out the sun
keeping the ground muddy.
I can see neither trees nor forest
because his poems are thickets
and marshy fields where danger lurks unseen.

In the silence, you must move slowly
or you will be startled by ink-colored corpses,
bombers spelling words in the sky.
Death barely misses me,
but catches the girl in the poem.
A feeling-fog lingers,
confusion and sadness, and I hope
this poem was not based on a true story.
It sounds too real to be fiction:
the little black girl killed,
and the red clay staining her white dress.
Who would think of that, if not the mind of actual events?

Despite a rational hesitation against terrible things,
I am forced to retrace my steps,
to reread the poem,
because I still don't quite understand what happened.

Protecting Pancakes and Hula


I wanted to tear the book from his thick fingers,
protect it from his roaming eyes.
He didn't turn the pages as I did;
one-by-one, stopping at each picture of old Hawaii,
slicing each side of the pineapple
away from its yellow heart.

He flipped pages, half-read captions,
often mis-reading the descriptions.
He criticized as if I had asked his opinion,
as if he were great enough to judge.
He broke my book like a coconut,
spilling every drop of milk
and leaving the rest to rot.

I had shown him "Pancakes and Hula"
because I thought he would appreciate it.
Not all art needs criticism or understanding.
Why does it matter if she took a thousand photos
and sifted through the sand for sea glass?
Or if these are it?
They're still beautiful, and still hers.
And no matter how little you can appreciate,
I still bought a book of her photography
and not yours.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Early Morning Nu'uanu

I'm a few minutes later than usual
and I blame every red light
on the odd time I left the house
and on the left-turning cars.
I focus on the clock,
barely noticing the radio chatter.
There's no real need to worry;
I don't want to go to work anyway.
And on Nu'uanu,
where the homeless claim shop doorways for the night,
a woman with unshaped hair
is belly dancing on her bedding pile,
curving her wrists and popping her hips
staring across the road
as if no cars passed,
as if no drivers turned their heads.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Christmas-lit ladies

I wonder if the trees feel dressed up,
wrapped in lights when no one is looking
by men hired to walk in circles around their narrow trunks
and then curl the lights around each branch.

They become queens, heads up and arms out
awaiting the ring on each finger.
Not looking left or right,
and certainly not seeing the other ladies in their matching finery.

Acquaintances over dinner

They're the type of women
who wear digital sports watches
or a hair tie around the wrist,
modern cheap casual against a vintage sleeve.

A well-fitted hiking raincoat
and two earrings in each ear.

With slightly imperfect hair,
fluffy and lovely,
or a larger than expected smile.

These are the women who play witty best friends
in British romantic comedies.
All fuzzy hair and great stories.

No cigarettes here, though.
No accents either.
All we need to complete our table is a feisty old woman,
independently wealthy and eager to discuss her worldly life's loves.